Rampant constraint

The good new is, I'm getting really good at going to campus on time. The bad news is I'm no better at going to sleep at a decent hour. So today my brain is slightly askew, but I've noticed things I haven't before.

Today as I walked home from campus, I went through a tunnel I hadn't traveled through before, and just went north-west after that, because that's where my apartment is. I took a handful of very short notes in my very small notebook, and they are very cryptic because the notebook is tiny and I can't expound on things when my hands are cold. So here they are, unchanged from my notebook.

Chains complaining

Endless dark hedges

The sidewalk was unfamiliar

Sleep deprived

Sour worms that never 

sweetened

Smell of fast food nose

wrinkling not mouth watering

BYU blue bluer than sky

Hands cold in a familiar

way.

Photographs waiting

Astonishing number of

Apartments

The weight of the mountains

The tiniest cog.

Underground mystery

Black slush chimney

Dance Dance

Danie

The leaves that never fell

Muted chicken tracks

Yeah, I'm pretty much toasted. I'll expand on a few of these snippets of my thoughts in the future, when I'm less tired. I think this was a good exercise in seeing the world a little better, even if the world was far too bright today for my poor eyes. Take a look around, you'll be surprised what you might see. 

Shutdown

Last post (a while ago, I know) I spoke of an uprising, a change in my life. Well, that uprising got shutdown. Change doesn't come that easy, it seems. I'm not doing any worse, I'm still vaguely optimistic about the future. My life's just not quite in order yet.

There's a little saying that goes something like this. Here are three things: 1. School, 2. Social life, 3. Sleep. Welcome to college, pick 2. I don't like this saying, because I think there's a way to have all three, plus, sleep is required. It comes down to time management, and I'm terrible at it. I have a watch and a calendar with all my schoolwork on it, but it doesn't help that much. I'm just not an orderly person, and that's not good. I figure if I can learn to form habits, things will be easier, and I'll get more of what's best. I'll start small. Here we go: Dishes. Wash 'em when I use em. I can do that. This is not a late New Year's resolution, I've already discussed how those are irrational.

I hope I don't become too "grown up" by doing this, but perhaps the 'joy of youth' is the enjoyment of not having to take care of yourself, and if growing up means taking care of myself, I guess that's what I'm trying to do.

Nerd's corner: League of Legends

This game is fantastic, and easily takes up more than 75% of my gaming time. I play it with friends, I play it with automatically found players. It is very fun when you get into it, however, this game is ridiculously addicting, so of course I can't recommend it to anyone who has a schedule like me. It involves strategy, quick hands, teamwork, and a thick skin. It's an online DOTA style game, where you and your team defend your base from the other team (whose win conditions are the same as yours, just opposite bases) You play with others across the internet, and each match lasts about 40 minutes. (Internet people can be vulgar and rude, hence the need for a thick skin.)

I play this game a little too much, so if I disappear randomly from the internet or don't text back for about 40 minutes. It's hard to leave a match, because your team (made up of your friends, usually) is counting on you. There are things worth leaving for. I actually hope to be playing less of this so that I can have more time for study and friends, but that may take some time. I've actually decided to not play after 11pm, just for the sake of sleep.